Memorial Day 2010

We live in a blessed country

at a blessed time

and may we never forget the men and women

who live and have died

to protect those blessings.

Headed back to California

My dear daddy is not doing well;

he had a stroke yesterday.

I need to be with him.



I have a few posts scheduled for next week

. . . . not sure when I will return.


my heart is feeling pretty heavy

so this is what I wore to visit Zach in the hospital






. . . . . got some interesting looks

and VIP access to areas marked Employees Only







sans a stethoscope, and 12 years of med school,

call me Doctor Freeman


******

Many of you have said we have blessings coming our way

thank you!

can't wait.


******


ps. dad is doing about the same

What in the world is going on ???

last night

we rushed Zach (Chrissy's hubby) to the ER ;

this morning he went into surgery to have his appendix out

. . . and just two hours ago,

my father was taken to the ER:

dehydrated, drifting in and out of coherence, fluid in his lungs.

Zach is doing well and should be home tonight,

but I still haven't heard about my dear father.

I am amazed at what we are called upon (and are able) to bear

. . . . but really. this is a bit much

Birthday Addendum:


When I returned from California

the mail held a birthday surprise from Ella





Addie




and Preston




aren't they beautiful?

I LOVE them!


thank you cuties !!



. . . . and someone asked to see my new birthday shoes

so, heeeeeeeeeere you go!

I love them both

but I love love the black ones.

they are Bandolino

If I custom designed a black high heel sandal for myself,

this would be it






but Steve liked the cream colored one,

soooooooo

I got both

ain't birthdays grand?

Happy Birthday Tige



Over the past 2 weeks, I missed some important posts

so let us begin

with the birthday of my cute husband, Steve

May 10th





I always pay tribute to my loved ones on their birthdays,

but this one, the most important one of all, was the most difficult to do.

do you know why?

because he is so special to me

our relationship is so precious

the words are hard to find

and the words are mostly between he and I.






But these are the words I will share:



Tige, I love you because:

You were the first guy I ever kissed

You are my best friend of 40 years

I feel safe being 100 percent myself with you

Without a word, you will grab the lotion and rub my feet

You scour the local countryside for firewood because I love fires on cold nights

You cook dinner like a pro (only cuter)

You will be the last guy I ever kiss

You watch chick shows, just to be with me . . . (The Bachelor)

You work hard to take care of us

You honor your Priesthood

You are a great father

You always have a happy disposition

You are still curious about life and learning new things:
golf, leather tooling, guitar making...



but mostly because, you are perfect

.....for me.















Happy Birthday Tige

Love, Doo

I am back.

physically, I mean.

but I am not back emotionally.

nor will I ever be in the same place I was just 2 short weeks ago.

trials change us.

for awhile, I won't be quite as carefree,

the sun won't shine as brightly.

someday it will stop:

that sick, sinking feeling deep in my gut

that comes every time I think of Wyatt

I wish, with all of my heart,

I could reach into Brittany and Ili's minds

and remove the pain.

I know from experience, that

one day,

I will find a place to put all of this;

it is a place that forces me to rely on my faith....more than ever

and I will be stronger than before

and a little more pragmatic

and hopefully, tempered and resilient and more faithful...

to face the next trial

because the next trial will come

and oh how I hope it comes to me

and not to my loved ones,

because that is so much harder to take.


******

my dear Wyatt,

I miss you. I love you. You are, and always will be, an important part of our family. You must be a most valiant spirit, far beyond that of my own. You came to exceptional parents; Papa and I will remain with them until we all, anxiously, meet you again.

I want you to know that your short time here served a purpose in my life. You touched me deeply. You made my goal, to live again with my family and Father in Heaven, very personal. I rededicate myself to that goal and promise you I will live the best life I can, so that I can be with you again.

Until that day, much love,

Meema

Our little Wyatt

will be memorialized

Saturday, May 8, 2010
10:30am (viewing at 10am)
Midwest City LDS Chapel
110 Morningside Drive
Midwest City, OK 73110


He will buried near his namesake, Thomas Freeman

Tuesday, May 11, 2010
11:00am
Clovis Cemetery
305 N. Villa
Clovis, CA 93612

I cannot express enough,
the deep gratitude we feel
toward each of you.

Heavenly Father is wrapping his arms around us
through your comforting expressions of love.

It literally holds us up.

In Memory of Wyatt Thomas Yuan
April 24, 2010- May 5, 2010

Thank you to all who have sent their love and well-wishes.
We are all feeling strengthened, especially Brittany and Ili.

Our son, Michael put together a fund
to allow people who would like to help out but don't know how they can.
Mike and his wife Marci will present the donations as a gift from all of you.

If you can and would like to help, please go to Marci's blog HERE.

We are so grateful for your prayers and concerns.
Brittany and Ili are feeling so blessed in their time of need.

Last night, at 2:30am,

we received the call no parents ever want to get.

Our dear little Wyatt, just 10 days old, passed away.

Steve and I are in Oklahoma City now with Brittany and Ili

to bring whatever comfort we can offer.

Our hearts are broken.

My daughter in law, Marci, wrote a lovely tribute that you can read HERE

I am not ready to say anything more

except this:

Our knowledge that he is now with our Father in Heaven

is like a lifeline

until our hearts mend, and we can join our precious Wyatt once again.

My birthday bash

started here:




every day, on the way out of the neighborhood,
we pass these cows laying in the flowers.

Today, I had the camera, so I made Steve turn the car around.
Unfortunately, when I opened the car door, it spooked 'em and they stood up.

But I am going to keep trying to get the shot I really want:
all the cows laying down, their heads and backs just peeking out of the wildflowers
...........it is verrry cute.


******

then, it was off to Fredericksburg

for breakfast at my favorite little German bakery

see the little peek of German flag behind our heads?




on the way home,

we drove through Luckenbach.

Chrissy took some pictures of us

and I took some pictures of them








That evening, Steve made yummy BBQ burgers





I got some new clothes

I love my cake plates, from Zach & Chrissy






We topped off the day with strawberry shortcake.






It was a perfect birthday

I am a blessed and lucky girl

Today is my birthday!




This is me.......every decade of my life:

Happy Birthday to me!

Is that OK to say?

Yes, I am sure it is.